been bz bein a "bum"

I just checked my posts here and I laughed when I saw that I posted one blog for this year.. What the h.....!! hehehe juz kiddin'...

I wasn't able to update this account often because I've been busy... I can't remember why but I was.. And I guess the primary reason is that I didn't have a job and I don't have the money to access the internet.. I already had my ISP pull-out my device for internet connection that's why even I'm juz at home for how many months I couldn't have access to the internet... Another reason is that I wasn't in the mood to create a new post for this blog because my mind was busy asking "What should I do with my life?"

Now, I have a new job and far from my hometown--which actually make me happier. And I'm enjoying the privilige of experiencing the things I thought I could not do. And I'm hoping I'll have fun in the coming moths and years..

This is for now 'coz I don't know what to type anymore.. I'm done bein a "Bum" and hopefully be a successful career woman.. Till next post..

I'm Back...

Its been long since I've last posted a blog. I've been busy with work which unfortunately ended January of this year. I ventured to a new city. I was interviewed and sent for a training in Manila. I was overwhelmed. I had lots of "first times". It was my first time to ride a plane. It was my first time in Manila (I was not really impressed 'coz its very polluted.). First time meeting people from the northern part of the Philippines. I made new friends. I learned a lot in a week of training. But circumstances made them decide to send me back where they hired me. I was devastated. I felt so down. I was doing well in the training, I asked why do I have to go?!

I answered back, "It was not for me. God has something better to offer me than that." But it happened a month ago, and what am I still doing? Nothing... AM I WORTHLESS?!! I cried for few nights thinking about this. I meditated and seek God's presence. Have I found the answer or is it just a defense mechanism? A voice told me that I still can't find a job because my brother needs me for his upcoming wedding ceremony. I'm the coordinator. Is it really the reason? Why don't opportunities knock on my door? Is it not yet time? Am I not giving enough effort? I have lots of questions but I can't find the answers. Maybe not today, tomorrow? Maybe... I hope I'll find the answer soon... This is all for know. Help me pray please..

Im Sorry...

I feel so guilty 'coz i have not updated account recently.. I've been trying to post a blog but my mind won't work.. there are a lot of thing that troubling me this past weeks that's why i can't think well.. I can't even send an SMS to my beloved cousin Jet.. Sorry talaga cuz hah!! Medyo umandar na naman kasi pagiging abnormal ko..

But the weeks that I wasn't able to update, andami ko namang na-learn sa working place ko.. My collegue is a real Christian and her church mates had been conducting devotional activities just behind our workplace.. She would always share thoughts about God's blessings and love for us. And how important it is to repent..

That 's why I'd like to apologize for all my shortcomings, sins and whatever bad things that I've done to all the people I know and have known me.. Whatever it is that I've done which made you feel bad, I'm Sorry!!! And to papa, mama, and kuya, I'm sorry for everything and THANK YOU for everything!!

God bless everyone... Mwaah

Natural Health

Fish Oil Benefits the Heart

By: Madeline Ellis
Published: Wednesday, 3 September 2008

It seems like every other day we hear about another health benefit to adding omega-3 fatty acids to our diet. This group of fats, the kind found in fish oil, have been proven to reduce the risk of some forms of cancer, relieve joint pain and other rheumatoid problems, and lessen the effects of depression and other mental disorders. Omega-3 fats can also help with some forms of skin problems and has been reported to ward off Alzheimer's disease. And most recently, daily fish oil supplements were shown to benefit the heart of people with chronic heart failure-slightly better than a popular cholesterol-reducing drug!

For the omega-3 polyunsaturated fatty acid (PUFA) study, Italian researchers enlisted more than 7,000 people who had been diagnosed with heart failure, a condition in which the heart becomes enlarged and loses its ability to effectively pump blood around the body. Half of the participants were given a daily capsule of omega-3, in addition to their other daily medications, while the other half took a placebo. They were followed for an average of four years, during which 1,981 (27 percent) of the group taking omega-3 died of heart failure or were admitted to the hospital with cardiovascular problems, compared to 2,053 (29 percent) of the placebo group.

In a parallel study, the same team studied heart failure rates of 2,285 patients who were given the statin rosuvastatin, also known as Crestor, while 2,289 were given a placebo. After tracking the patients for an average of four years, the doctors found little difference in the death rate between the two groups. When they compared the results from both studies, the researchers concluded that omega-3 is slightly more effective than the drug because it performed better against a placebo. "Our study shows that the long-term administration of 1g per day of omega 3 polyunsaturated fatty acid was effective in reducing both all-cause mortality and admissions to hospital for cardiovascular reasons," said Professor Luigi Tavazzi from the research center of the of the Italian Association of Hospital Cardiologists based in Florence.

This new study confirms the results of previous studies that investigated the benefits of omega-3 fatty acids, but they have largely been observational and have lacked a direct comparison to a placebo. "This study changes the certainty of the evidence we have about fish oils," said Dr. Douglas Weaver, president of the American College of Cardiology. He said that guidelines in the U.S. would likely change to recommend more heart patients take supplements or eat more fish. "This is a low-tech solution and could help all patients with cardiovascular problems," he said.

However, in an editorial accompanying the journal report, Dr. Gregg Fonarow, professor of cardiovascular medicine at the University of California, Los Angeles, said the positive trial results doesn't mean that a statin should not be prescribed for someone with heart failure and high cholesterol, but "indicates that heart failure, in and of itself, should not be a reason to start a patient on a statin." He also stressed that people with heart failure should not start taking fish oil supplements on their own. "They used a specific formulation, a prescription formulation. Heart failure is a very high-risk condition. It is absolutely critical for patients, whether it is a prescription medicine or modification of diet or a supplement, that they consult their physician," he said.

Public health organizations recommend that everyone eat fish twice a week. Oily fish, such as salmon, mackerel, halibut, herring, sardines, albacore tuna and anchovies are an excellent source of omega-3 fatty acids. However, fish is not the only source. You should also consider other seafood, such as Pacific oysters, shrimp, mollusks and Alaskan king crab. Walnuts and flaxseed can also add substantial amounts of omega-3 to your diet, as can vegetables such as spinach, broccoli, and cauliflower. But the most certain prescription is to take a fish oil supplement, since it has specified doses of EPA and DHA, and can also alleviate concerns about fish being contaminated with mercury or PCB's.

The findings of both studies were published online August 31 in the journal The Lancet and presented at a meeting of the European Society of Cardiology, in Munich, Germany.

Should I?

I've been watching foreign drama series and most of them are all about love... And I asked myself when will I have that kind of love.. I can't say that I don't know what love is. My family showed me that.. Then I thought "Should I start dating?"

Maybe some people would laugh at me asking this silly question. I admit, I'm a bit crazy. I've never been in a date with someone special for me. Am I that naive or I just luck self-confidence? My friends say I'm a person with obvious self-confidence and maybe men would be intimidated by me.

I'd like to disagree with that statement. I don't have that confidence when it comes to dating. I think that I'm the ugliest person on earth and no man will ever like me unless they offer plain friendship... Hahahaha I really don't know. My bestfriend told me that I should go on dates. I have to get out from my shell and meet people and I should not expect that the man for me would just fall sky and "Pang!", There he is! I think she has a point but I think I am just afraid to risk my heart in something that I am not sure of.

I don't have the blood of a party girl who goes to bar with her friends. I just don't like that kind of life. I know how to have fun without the noise, alcohol, smoke, etc. I don't even want to use the cyber world for me to find the guy for me. I just don't trust those guys online unless they are my friends. Most of the men looking for partners on the web are bunch of perverts and losers. Hehehehe I'm so mean.. Sorry but based from what I've experienced from chatting on YM, I seldom find men who have sense, I mean most of the men on the chatroom are looking naughty person just like them. That's why I don't even like to chat.

What shall I do now? Should I look for someone now? Do I sound desperate? I guess I'm not yet desperate... I'm still young and I prefer wait for God's gift to me. Maybe he's just there somewhere and I believe that we're bound to meet in God's time. And I hope when that time comes, I wont get hurt or cry, but if I do, I hope that person is worth it.

Family and Friends

I am so blessed for having my family... And for our family to have found true friends...


My mom had been diagnosed of a cyst in on of her breasts. Before we went to a surgeon for a consultation, my mom felt a painful and tingling sensation on the part where the cyst occurred. I was afraid thinking that that thing needs to undergo biopsy. I don't wish for my mom to experience such illness. After we met the surgeon, it was just a benign tumor and the pain that my mom felt was caused by an infection due to the dirt that went in breast through the pores of her skin. She was prescribed with an antibiotic for 3 days and pain-reliever..

On the 2nd day after that consultation, my Uncle who is my mom's older brother called her to tell her that his friend who is also a surgeon wants to see her and agreed to perform her surgery. It was a relief on our part because my Uncle's friend won't charge his usual PF, he'll just receive what the health insurance company would give him. He was a well-known surgeon here and its a good thing he's my uncle's friend... hehehehe

The surgery was scheduled last Friday 4:00 pm, I asked my colleague the day before that we change our schedules, so I worked in the morning and finished my shift at exactly 3pm.. As I was going to the hospital, I sent and SMS to my friend who work there as an OR nurse. I asked her if she was on duty. She was about to take a leave but fortunately I was able to text her on time. She said she'll wait for my mom in the OR. I was glad to hear that because even though I can't be inside the OR, my friend is there and my mom knows her too. As I arrived at the hospital Ii went straight to the ER and found my mom there with her best friend. My mom was already wearing the patient's gown and was ready to be transported to the ER.

When we arrived outside the OR, my friend was there already and enthusiastically welcomed my mom. I thought she did that to make my mom comfortable and wont get too nervous about the surgery. I told my friend to take of my mom. She replied "Ako na ang bahala kay TITA." After that I, my cousin who accompanied my mom since morning, my mom's best friend went to the hospital's chapel. When prayed that there wont be any complication after the surgery and hoped that whatever it is that is inside that breast is not something that needs biopsy. We just stayed there until the surgery was done for about one and a half hour. My other cousins went there too to check my mom's condition. My uncle(my mom's younger brother) and his wife went there too. After the surgery my mom walked out of the OR with my friend and we settled the bill. I asked how was the surgery and my friend told me that what they got was pus and dirt which was a good thing. And she told me that it was good that we had discovered the cyst earlier or else the infection would affect her whole breasts.

We settled our account and celebrated the success of the surgery. We dined at "Pizza Hut" and we informed my mom's younger sister to have a dinner with us. My Tita gave my mom a supplement which is good for wound healing and other diseases. My dad and brother were kept updated through SMS. We had a great time that nice because we were all relieved that my mom is okay now.

And I am so grateful to have such a wonderful family who sticks with us through thick and thin. And for friends who are always there to help us in their own simple ways.. I thank God for these gift... LOVE and FRIENDSHIP..

Lake House

I rented a DVD of the movie "THE LAKE HOUSE" which starred by Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves.. I think it was released on 2006 but I haven't watched it at that year for it was a "one hell of a year for me". Hehehe I just heard from some of my friends that it was a nice film but I really didn't get a chance to watch it even after the board exam since I got busy looking for a job. Anyway, since the students in the school where I work now had their first periodical examination which started last Wednesday, I didn't have a busy week. I went to the mall to pay my broadband bill and I passed by a video store and looked for a nice movie. *This photo is actually the end scene wherein they've met in 2008 at the "Lake House."
I love this part.*

"The Lake House" was one of the movies I rented. I watched it last nice, oh, it was actually 1:30 a.m. today. I was curious of the synopsis so I watched it after I finished 3 chapters of a Taiwanese Series. I can say that it was truly a wonderful love story. Its magical, its a one of a kind love story. Though I know that it won't happen in real life, it somehow touched my heart. It was amazing how two people found true in different times though its kind of creepy and weird... Hehehehe

I hope everybody finds true love and never give up on it....